Saturday, April 28, 2007

i dunnoe wad to say but to say thank you to lots of people who has been helping me in my life to make my life smoother and more wonderful...

i really feel very fortunate ..

and you, who has came into my life when i'm really down and hoping someone will take care of me.. you did.. thanks.. you've brought me lots of laughter ..

is this call fate??

-lydiia

Lydia will treasure and cherish., 2:48 PM.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

as i was listening to love songs, thoughts jus flash into my mind...

in a relationship, the most difficult times is the time when people jus broke up with the one he/she loves the most.. but is it really very difficult to stand up again?

it all have to depend on how u look at the situation..

friends are the one who will always be at our side when we are down.. yupp.. indeed their presence is very important but i think whether to stand up again have to depend on ourselves.. friends cannot control how we think..

actually the most important thing in the relationship is the process and not the ending result.. during the process, both once shares their sorrow and happiness together, once take care of each other before and most important once had each other as their love one before..

and from the old relationship, we can learn cherish our future boyfriend/ galfriend even more and also from them, we then realise we actually can be strong enough to stand up again in jus a few days..

other then finding a partner, friends will always be very important in my life..

and i've noe this gal, since 2002.. we've learnt alot from each other..

there are many people who are play an important role in my life.. i've too many to mention.. and all will be in the bottom of my heart..
not forgetting, my job, as a nurse.. i'll give my best to take good care of those who need help and help them to be able to recover soon.. smiling and laughing will be my job too (:

*you've give me lots of laughter you noe ..

-lydiia

Lydia will treasure and cherish., 12:17 AM.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREW MONKEY SEAH !!!

Lydia will treasure and cherish., 8:31 PM.

school has started a week already and i feel so much different from attending secondary school..

in poly, self discipline is very important.. teachers will not chase u to hand in ur work and teachers will not force u to go for lesson.. all these, you have to know u are suppose to do..

for the first week, it has been a busy and tired one.. my timetable was not a very nice timetable.. lesson starts early and end late too .. although school of hs need not buy a laptop, bringing those lecture notes and thousand over pages textbooks are jus enough for us to carry..

diploma in health science is not only on nursing but alot more.. i've psychology and sociology module, mircobiology and some rather profound modules..

so i think it is not as easy as wad people normally think..

school term starts and everyone is very busy.. wonder how he is now? doing fine? should be doing very fine bah..

hope he will take good care of himself and have enough rest ..

*maybe letting go is also a form of love... and i will learn to let him go (:

-lydiia

Lydia will treasure and cherish., 8:04 PM.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

today wake up super early to go singapore conference hall to give my beloved juniors the best support for their syf 2007.

although the result was not what they expect, i think it was really good and better than what i expect..

all this while, i've seen them improve and i can say

MY DEAR JUNIORS, I'M VERY PROUD OF YOU GUYS !!!

actually i think the end result is not the most important and instead it is the process that matters.

i know my juniors have work hard..

juniors, u might think that it is unfair but i think that's life..

life will not always be smooth and successful but all u need is determination to stand up and try again.. as long as you work hard for it then we will not live in regrets..

as what they say, 99% hard work and 1% luck and maybe you guys jus dun have the 1% of luck..

cheer up people!! you guys will always be a gold band in the seniors eyes !!

no matter wad, look at failure on a more positive side. treat those failures as a learning lesson and make sure that we will not repeat out mistake ..

in my life, i remember my worst failure was my PSLE result. but i've learn to study harder..

i know i'll be facing lots more in my coming life and i'll tell myself to have great determination to try harder again.

you guys too !! try harder and i believe u guys will succeed next time..

-lydiia

Lydia will treasure and cherish., 5:33 PM.

Sunday, April 08, 2007

jus came back from my buddhist camp..

tired..

today, i've also got some important information and also got this chance to speak out what i have in my heart all this while to someone who had great experience in her life.

she told me," find someone who dote on you and not want you to suffer."

actually did i ask alot from a relationship?

"he's a nice boy.". that's wad lots of people think and i can't do anything but to agree more.

yupp..he's a nice guy.. someone who love to give out smile to others but not to let people see his sorrow.

i dare not think far but to give him my fullest support and hope in the end, everything will turn out smoothly.

if i didn't get wad i want in the end, i know i won't be sad but to be happy for him.

seeing him to become a successful person and a happy guy is jus enough..

i know there are lots of commitment coming up for him..

jus wanna say, all the best.

jia you.. i know you can do it.. may u continue to give ur laughter to other people..

* all i want is you to be happy ...

-lydiia

Lydia will treasure and cherish., 8:10 PM.

Friday, April 06, 2007

i believe when time comes, it will come..

sometimes i may seems strong, but there will also be times when i'm confused and feel lost.

maybe everything jus ended suddenly and maybe i'm jus too optimistic in everything that lead me to have too much faith in the relationship..

no matter wad, everything was a past already and the thing i can do now is to look forward and continue with my life..

dun live to the fullest becos of others but becos of yourself..

another chapter of my life had ended and the new one has jus started..

i hope every chapter of my life will be a good one..

and i'll make it good..

tml i'll be going to my buddhist class camp..

i'm going to enjoy myself there and if there is chance to talk to him, i will.

to him, friends are more important and maybe being his friend is some kind of better..

he will always be a very special friend of mine.. a friend who have teached me alot..

i think i'm half way through my difficult times..

i've to thanks lots of people for their effort..

Lin qiang,
thanks for the laughter that you have given me.. thanks for ur ears and ur words of advice.. i'll always remember wad you say," a smile will explain everything.".

michelle,
thanks for ur accompany too.. you are always the one who will always be at my side when i need someone to talk to.. thanks my gal..

carol,
thanks for the majong session on that day. thanks for the laughter that you and ur cousin have given me.. thank you.

brother's galfriend,
thanks for all the words of advice. i've learnt alot from you.. ur words have make me to become even stronger..

there are lots more who have been giving ur support to me.. thank you everybody (:

last of all, wanqi, get well soon my gal.. everything will jus be fine alright (:

* i'll be happy simply becos life is precious..

-lydiia

Lydia will treasure and cherish., 8:22 PM.

hope after you have done all your commitment, you will still remember the gal who will be giving you the fullest support..

may you be very successful in the future..

-lydiia

Lydia will treasure and cherish., 1:13 AM.

Thursday, April 05, 2007

what am i thinking now?

happy?

sad?

lost?

i've been telling myself to be strong and tell myself that i can stand up again..

i've been dreaming these two nights and he's in my every dream..

not a single one is a happy dream..

i tell myself not to think so much..

can i?

what's my plan now?

-i'm going to study hard for my nursing course
-i'm going to press on no matter how tough the course is going to be

am i going to wait for him?

hmm..maybe fate will explain everything..

how i wish he can sing or play this song to me

蔡昮佑-我可以

寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪
有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景
有我爱你
我可以
陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想
又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你

幸福它真的不容易

-lydiia

Lydia will treasure and cherish., 9:29 PM.

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

we have part for more then 30 odd hours already.. is he feeling any better now?

today went to child care center rather late becos me myself dunnoe will breakdown when i see him..

nope..

i didn't cry..

i was normal, laughing with the other teachers and kids..

i went off from the center around 645 p.m. and along the way to yio chu kang mrt station, i recall those memories i had with him..

from the first time he hold my hand to the last time we hug each other..

there are rather lots of memories at yio chu kang mrt station.. especially at the last part of the platform.. i walked there today.. ...alone..... thinking about 30 days back..

i smiled.. i left no tears to roll down from my eyes but a smile beocs i've him as my boyfriend before..

the warm and love he had given out will always be remembered..

i hope he has feel better without me and feel happier and lighter..

i hope this time round he can feel the support i've always been giving him..

last night, one of my friend ask me,"wad have you learnt from this 37 days?''

i've learnt to become more independent.
i've learnt to become more da fang.

this 37 days have let me see a very different him.. a very kind hearted guy, a guy who will always give laughter to people..

being his friend might be better in some way..

*lydia will be strong...

-lydiia

Lydia will treasure and cherish., 9:18 PM.

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

everything had jus ended in few mintues.. maybe both parties are at fault..

i'm back to single life again.. although that's not i want, seeing him in pain doesn't make me feel any better..

maybe i'm jus his burden all this while.. i'm so sorry..

i hope i'll get to noe him better and things might come out good in the end..

Things will not always work out the way you want to be.. i've put in effort in this relationship but maybe the way of scarify is wrong..

loving doesn't mean owning and maybe this can apply to me..

if he will be happier if i leave him then why not?

seeing him happy is jus enough and i noe without me, he will be happier and feel less stress..

jianhong,
thanks for that wonderful 37 days.. although our relationship is short, i'll still remember every moment we spent together.. maybe i really dun understand you well.. but i hope that you will remember that i'll always support you.. hope this time you can feel my support.. with all my heart, thank you and sorry .. you will always be in a small corner in my heart..

*keeping faith in myself

-lydiia

Lydia will treasure and cherish., 2:57 PM.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

sometimes i wonder... is letting go the best way of all?

today, 1st April 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST CAROL AND PEIWEN !!! (:

today was rather a boring day for me.. in the morning i went to work at the clinic and went to sunday class.. today was alone cos huaisian and zhen shan were not able to attend the lesson today.. but still, i've learn alot..

i've been asking myself," did i live my life to the fullest each day?"

i noe i didn't.. sometime i jus think that i'm wasting lots of my precious time.. i know i've been rather down this few days and i've been telling myself that i must be happy everyday..

i'll be happy everyday !!!

i know i'm getting more and more independent after knowing him.. i know i've to be independent cos everything around us is impermance and everything will leave us in the end.. we can only rely on ourselves and not others..

everything jus got their positive and negative side.. everything jus depend on how you look at the suitation.. i'll look more on the positive becos this will allow me to become happier and not waste time troubling myself..

* everything will just be fine as long as you have faith in it.. i have faith in you and this relationship.. i dun mind having a very simple one but jus to have you ..

-lydiia

Lydia will treasure and cherish., 9:11 PM.