Monday, July 28, 2008
What you think about life? A unfair or or you think god is fair to everyone?
Everyday, we look at our life, complaining about the suffering we have to go through. Like me, always complaining about the 5000 words proposal that need to be submitted in a weeks time. But think about it, there are people in this world who do not even have the chance to study. Why am i here complaining?
Looking at the patients lying in the ward hoping the doctor can discharge them, why am i still choosing the food i want and thinking of buying all those clothes and dresses when i already have them.
I do not know why and i do not know how to explain, i just believe that god is fair. I believe he loves everyone. People can argue how fair can the world be. There are still so many people searching for food and kids suffering from malnutrition. But i believe they are the one who scarifies and teach us how fortunate we are leaving in singapore.
In the future, i will be an obstetric nurse. I believe it will definitely be a very unspeakable feeling to be the second person to hold the babies. And if i work harder, i can even be the first to bring the child to this world. A new born babies ..... He/She will walk through the journey of life like us. Though it's not easy but i believe this world is still a beautiful place.
I will want to walk through this beautiful life of mine with you, my precious!
i love you!
Everyday, we look at our life, complaining about the suffering we have to go through. Like me, always complaining about the 5000 words proposal that need to be submitted in a weeks time. But think about it, there are people in this world who do not even have the chance to study. Why am i here complaining?
Looking at the patients lying in the ward hoping the doctor can discharge them, why am i still choosing the food i want and thinking of buying all those clothes and dresses when i already have them.
I do not know why and i do not know how to explain, i just believe that god is fair. I believe he loves everyone. People can argue how fair can the world be. There are still so many people searching for food and kids suffering from malnutrition. But i believe they are the one who scarifies and teach us how fortunate we are leaving in singapore.
In the future, i will be an obstetric nurse. I believe it will definitely be a very unspeakable feeling to be the second person to hold the babies. And if i work harder, i can even be the first to bring the child to this world. A new born babies ..... He/She will walk through the journey of life like us. Though it's not easy but i believe this world is still a beautiful place.
I will want to walk through this beautiful life of mine with you, my precious!
i love you!
Lydia will treasure and cherish., 10:41 PM.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Everytime when i go for attachment, i see those patients lying on the bed. The pain in them is something that i will never be able to feel.
Today, i just suddenly had a random thought," What if one day i am diagnosis with cancer". Will i be able to face it? Will i still stay strong like those patients in the hospital? What is the feeling of going throuhg chemotherapy? I know it's definitely something that no one will want to go through. Hair will start to falls and day by day, i will be thinner and thinner. The worst is the nausea and vomitting feeling. I know all these are terrible and i know there are people undergoing all these sufferings now. I really pray to god that all these people will have great determination to hold on to their life and may god bless that they will fully recover and never got to suffer again.
What if one day i really got diagnosis with cancer? Will i want him to leave me or want him to stay by my side and walk through with me even though i know that the end result can just be death. Will i have the courage to lie that i cheat on him and want him to find a better girl? I know it's difficult to open up but is it too selfish to continue to keep him by my side and suffer with me? I can imagine how hurt he will be. But is this a better way? At least he will have a better reason o find a new girl to take care of him. And i will surely look after him even after i'm gone with the wind.
What will happen during my hospital stay? most likely will be on the bed and too weak to even get out of bed. I know this is going to cost a bomb to my family. Maybe at a point of time, this can be one of the reason to give up the last breath.
When i think of this, eyes start to get watery and thing starts to get scary. I believe that's the reason why people are afraid to face death. Because no one will know where u will go after the very last breath as a human.
It's really very depressing to know that the patient will be leaving soon. Family members and friends will crowd around tearing. If i'm the patient, i will not want to see them crying. This will even make me more diffcult to give up the last breath as i believe i will not bear to leave all of them.
because of my parents and thaddues, i will hold on till the last breath and till god bring me away..............
i love you!
Today, i just suddenly had a random thought," What if one day i am diagnosis with cancer". Will i be able to face it? Will i still stay strong like those patients in the hospital? What is the feeling of going throuhg chemotherapy? I know it's definitely something that no one will want to go through. Hair will start to falls and day by day, i will be thinner and thinner. The worst is the nausea and vomitting feeling. I know all these are terrible and i know there are people undergoing all these sufferings now. I really pray to god that all these people will have great determination to hold on to their life and may god bless that they will fully recover and never got to suffer again.
What if one day i really got diagnosis with cancer? Will i want him to leave me or want him to stay by my side and walk through with me even though i know that the end result can just be death. Will i have the courage to lie that i cheat on him and want him to find a better girl? I know it's difficult to open up but is it too selfish to continue to keep him by my side and suffer with me? I can imagine how hurt he will be. But is this a better way? At least he will have a better reason o find a new girl to take care of him. And i will surely look after him even after i'm gone with the wind.
What will happen during my hospital stay? most likely will be on the bed and too weak to even get out of bed. I know this is going to cost a bomb to my family. Maybe at a point of time, this can be one of the reason to give up the last breath.
When i think of this, eyes start to get watery and thing starts to get scary. I believe that's the reason why people are afraid to face death. Because no one will know where u will go after the very last breath as a human.
It's really very depressing to know that the patient will be leaving soon. Family members and friends will crowd around tearing. If i'm the patient, i will not want to see them crying. This will even make me more diffcult to give up the last breath as i believe i will not bear to leave all of them.
because of my parents and thaddues, i will hold on till the last breath and till god bring me away..............
i love you!
Lydia will treasure and cherish., 11:22 PM.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
How nice i can leave the country with him tomorrow? How nice we are at the airport now, staying a night there and wait for our flight to which ever country.
Kenya used to be my dream place. It is still my dream place now. There's a mountain there which is named mt. kenya. Make a wish there and if you are able to see the peak of the mountain, as the peak is always covered by clouds, this means that your dream will come true. I have so so so many wishes, i wish to go there to make my wishes.
in school, nursing research proposal is killing me! 5000 words is the requirement. Stress, stress and stress. Due date for that is 5 August! i'm still not starting! I seems to complain a lot but whenever i want to start, my mind goes blank!
shall not think of it anymore.......
i'm missing precious now. He bought me a pooh pooh! thanks hubby! that's so lovely and cute! pooh pooh really make me smile!
I always love to be with precious. He always make me smile. I miss his cute face, his smart face and his serious face. How nice i can stare at you when you sleep and secretly kiss you.
i want your hug hubby!
i want your hug through the night. you make me feel secure as if we are living in the holy world.
......
*my dream now is to have go on a holiday with you MR. SIM!
i love you.
Kenya used to be my dream place. It is still my dream place now. There's a mountain there which is named mt. kenya. Make a wish there and if you are able to see the peak of the mountain, as the peak is always covered by clouds, this means that your dream will come true. I have so so so many wishes, i wish to go there to make my wishes.
in school, nursing research proposal is killing me! 5000 words is the requirement. Stress, stress and stress. Due date for that is 5 August! i'm still not starting! I seems to complain a lot but whenever i want to start, my mind goes blank!
shall not think of it anymore.......
i'm missing precious now. He bought me a pooh pooh! thanks hubby! that's so lovely and cute! pooh pooh really make me smile!
I always love to be with precious. He always make me smile. I miss his cute face, his smart face and his serious face. How nice i can stare at you when you sleep and secretly kiss you.
i want your hug hubby!
i want your hug through the night. you make me feel secure as if we are living in the holy world.
......
*my dream now is to have go on a holiday with you MR. SIM!
i love you.
Lydia will treasure and cherish., 11:41 PM.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Today we spent time at our favourite place again - Singpore Changi Airport. Today not just to go there and enjoy the time with planes but also to study.
And we set a dream today too.
that is to go an oversea trip after our poly life. The country don't really matter as long as we get a chance to go for a trip and it's just the 2 of us.
Pray hard that this dream can come true. And i believe, god will be there to help us fulfill our dream.
So now, i just want to work hard for my school work and of course to work hard for our future. Our future might seems long and of course, many people will think that it's too early to talk about the future now because no one knows the future. But.... God knows. I believe he wants the best for everyone.
Life will be great if we choose it to be. Everything lies on you hand. (:
I give thanks to you, Lord jesus christ. Amen.
i love you.
And we set a dream today too.
that is to go an oversea trip after our poly life. The country don't really matter as long as we get a chance to go for a trip and it's just the 2 of us.
Pray hard that this dream can come true. And i believe, god will be there to help us fulfill our dream.
So now, i just want to work hard for my school work and of course to work hard for our future. Our future might seems long and of course, many people will think that it's too early to talk about the future now because no one knows the future. But.... God knows. I believe he wants the best for everyone.
Life will be great if we choose it to be. Everything lies on you hand. (:
I give thanks to you, Lord jesus christ. Amen.
i love you.
Lydia will treasure and cherish., 11:45 PM.
Saturday, July 05, 2008
Childish and i think you are just an extra seriously.
Lydia will treasure and cherish., 10:52 PM.
I'ver realised.....
some people just never learn .....
never grow up....
Lord jesus christ, please help them.
if you dare, do it out loud. If you do not, STOP IT!
some people just never learn .....
never grow up....
Lord jesus christ, please help them.
if you dare, do it out loud. If you do not, STOP IT!
Lydia will treasure and cherish., 10:16 AM.
Friday, July 04, 2008
This is my life, i want and i will live it to the fullest. No one owes me a living, i got to work hard for myself.
There are times in life that i feel very very tired and wanted a beak from everything and go on a trip with him. Whatever place we go but just to leave singapore.
School is starting, i hope my life will be smoother. I really hate obstacles like who likes it but all thanks to all these obstacles that make me stronger.
Tomorrow will we our 10th month. Seems so long but time passes only 10 months. how nice it's our 10 years anniversary. On our 10th month, we got a church wedding to attend. I believe i'll be envious. how nice our common dream can come true tomorrow too.
Today had a fun day with him. Thanks for everything that he has done to cheer me up. I think he really know me the best. shall give you a kiss THADDEUS. MUACKS !
-I've learnt to keep things to myself. Or maybe this is something that will comes with you when you grow older. But still, he will be the one that i share all my joy and sorrow with. (:
*i love you.
a video for you.
050907.
There are times in life that i feel very very tired and wanted a beak from everything and go on a trip with him. Whatever place we go but just to leave singapore.
School is starting, i hope my life will be smoother. I really hate obstacles like who likes it but all thanks to all these obstacles that make me stronger.
Tomorrow will we our 10th month. Seems so long but time passes only 10 months. how nice it's our 10 years anniversary. On our 10th month, we got a church wedding to attend. I believe i'll be envious. how nice our common dream can come true tomorrow too.
Today had a fun day with him. Thanks for everything that he has done to cheer me up. I think he really know me the best. shall give you a kiss THADDEUS. MUACKS !
-I've learnt to keep things to myself. Or maybe this is something that will comes with you when you grow older. But still, he will be the one that i share all my joy and sorrow with. (:
*i love you.
a video for you.
050907.
Lydia will treasure and cherish., 10:39 PM.
Thursday, July 03, 2008
speechless...
i'm totally speechless this time...
It was never a lie...
i'm totally speechless this time...
It was never a lie...
Lydia will treasure and cherish., 11:26 PM.
